I slept at 3 a.m and I woke up at 6a.m due to weird dream I had. I saw two of myself walking down the same street at the same time.

One with a girl I used to love:another with a girl; just normal friends. Let Couple A and Couple B be A:B . Let A':B' (note the apostrophe) be myself since there was two of me.

I was just a tangent away, I saw A talking like we used to, but not anymore for now because in a breakdown in communication. Beside Couple A, there was Couple B, I saw myself in B how caring am I to that girl. How authentic I can be in front of her, It's like angels walking besides me telling me not to tell lies, not to do what Islam told not to do so. I can see the difference glowing in my face between A' and B'.

At one point, B' was quiet and A' was just happily talking with his friend. A' finally saw B', what happened? A' thought B' should be glad because A' can see his bright future. Sooner:

- A' : What happened?

- B' : I missed the way I used to talk like you, A'

- A' : Don't worry B', we had gone through ups and down together. Don't bring me in your life B'. Well me and her were just friends as you do. You know her, but I don't know who's walking besides you right now B'. I should be proud of you.

- B' : Thanks A', but i don't know why my head is bothering me. Im mad at you! You should not do this! Now I don't know who I should be walking beside with!

- A' : But I am who I am, you can't deny it. And why Im proud of you and you're mad at me?

I am your past and you are my future. And I'm scared if my future turns out to be a disaster, but B'... You show me a great example. And you should walk beside me, not with me. I may be in your sight, but don't make me put in your life.

At this point, B' was totally speechless. A' was crying because he saw B' finally realize he should not be sad because of what he did in the past. As a wise friend said 'let bygones be bygones'.

I can see B's eyes was bubbly, he stood straight as there was neither a force on him nor sadness and resentments. I saw both of myself hugging each other. Shook hands and continue their own life. So at that moment, who am I? I saw my past and I saw my future. What am I? I learn a lot in this dream. We should not dragged the past along with ourselves although how HURT and how PAINFUL it is...